My two eldest boys

I am finding myself going through a new lesson in life. My two eldest boys are growing up into men. They'll be 18 & 19 this month and I am so very proud of them both. Life flies by so fast, one minute they're babies and I was bouncing them on my knee and now they're young men.

I sort of feel like I am loosing them, as they get older and want to and need to live their own lives. In another sense I am so proud of watching them grow up into fine young men. It sort of feels like my heart is bursting and can't hold all the love I have inside for them, so it is bursting and radiating out of me. Part of me is happy and part of me is so sad. But mostly I am so very very proud. I'm feeling so sentimental tonight.

Hubby and his Hellcat plane.

I'm a Learner Driver doing very badly!!!!!!!!

I've been having a go at learning to drive. I have been learning on a private field and was doing OK. It's just me and hubby on there so there was no one else there to distract me. So hubby and I felt I needed the road as there was only so much I could learn on the field.

Saturday morning, I had my first lesson on the road and totally screwed up! I was nervous, but when I was at a mini roundabout and looked in my wing mirror and I saw there was someone behind me. That was it, my mind went blank, I began to panic and I was shaking all over. I couldn't start the car as I kept stalling it. Then I was revving the engine as I forgot to take my foot off the clutch, it was all going wrong!!! Then as I went to turn the corner, I had the shakes so much I nearly crashed into the curb, and that was that. I got out the car and refused to drive it anymore.

Now I'm terrified to get back behind the wheel, and yet I want to learn to drive, but I am scared of making any more mistakes. I just hate the clutch and gear stick, and also I can't find my bitting point *sobs*