A Little Cutie!!!!

This is two pictures of my Sister In-laws dog. He is so cute and looks like a ball of wall. His name is Jazz and he's adorable!!

Work and a New Beginning!

Well, I went for a Job interview this morning at a school. And was told I can start on the 3rd September! I am so excited about it, and also a little nervous. It's been a long time since I last worked, and now I can't wait to get back into it.

My hubby also works there, he's the Supervisor, so this will be interesting LOL But we've talked loads about it and are both looking forward to it.

I can't wait for 3rd September to come around now!!!!! :)

Opticians

I have an appointment with the Optician tomorrow. Jess convinced me to go and make an appointment for an eye test, as she went and had one as she was suffering with Migraines for a while, and it turns out she needs glasses when she reads and is at the PC.

I don't get headaches, but at times when I read I can feel my eyes straining and I end up squinting sometimes.

Hopefully I won't need any glasses, but if I do I don't mind. I can just tell everyone I went to Spec Savers! LOL.

Job Interview

I have a job interview on Thursday!!!! Yay!!! I'm so excited but also nervous at the same time. :) :) :)

A Levels Exam Results

Both my two eldest boys had to pick up their A level exam results yesterday.
Alex whose 18, has just left college and passed his A level results and has now been accepted into University. He's going to attend the Greenwich University and study Computing and Games Software.

Jim whose 17, failed his A level results, and is going to re-take his studies at college. He's going to re-study P.E & Biology. He is keeping the option open to be a Fire fighter. I hope this is a dream he creates. But he's not 100% sure what he wants to do yet.

I think they're both lucky to have this opportunity to go to college and Uni. If I knew what I know now back then, I would have done the same.

A Nice Evening ......

Hubby & I were all set out to go to Hastings tonight to see Joe, Jess, Jeff & Sophie. But just before we got on the motor way, the traffic report on the radio said there was a 10 mile trail back of traffic jam on the M25. So we had to turn around and go home. We were both so disappointed as we were really looking forward to seeing them and having an evening out.

I knew there must be a reason why, other than the traffic jam. The Universe always has a reason why. Anyway at 4 pm, my hubby's mum and sister Corrie turns up. It was a lovely surprise. Corrie brought her dog Jazz with her, and so I had loads of fun with him, as he's so cute. Also it helped with some of the healing of not having Amber anymore.

I got to learn that my sister in-law, loves to read. She's a bookaholic! So I gave her 3 books of authors she hasn't tried yet. I gave her Priestess of the White by Trudi Canavan, I was planning to re-read it, but I didn't like it the first time round, and she said she loved fantasy, so I thought the book should go to a good home of someone who may appreciate it more. I also gave her Jodi Picoult - Plain Truth, it's another book I didn't enjoy but loads of other people love her books. It's just not for me though. I also gave her Good In bed by Jennifer Weiner. This is a brilliant book, and every woman should read it. It's just sitting on my shelf so that's why I gave it to her.

Now I know Jess, may say hey you haven't given me any, well I have some books Jess may want too. ;)

Amber & Me

I shouldn't really been doing this, but I wanted to post a pic of Amber and me, when we had her. This pic was taken in April of this year. I really miss her, and part of me does regret that we found her a new home. I know she's not far and I know she went to great people. But I miss all those happy and fun times we had with her. I know hubby & I made the right decision as we both felt we couldn't cope with her, as the stress was just taking over. It may be because we had a bad start off with her, as she was ill that caused us to worry so much. Other people don't seem or at least to us, don't seem to worry so much about their pets, may be it's just that we found it hard to fit into the routine with Amber? But Amber completely turned our lives upside down. I regret that I didn't look into it more than I did, all I thought of was that 'I' wanted a puppy. Hubby didn't but he still got her for me. We often say, may be if we never had had a bad start off with her, we may have kept her? But we can't keep saying what if? After all we made our decision.

The thing I miss the most is the walks with her, Joe misses her loads and I was angry with myself for a while for breaking his heart. I still am angry at times. I'm also angry that we put Amber through that of having to go to a new home. I know on the day she left she loved the new owner she was going to, and was so excited he was taking her out. We were supposed to keep her when we got her, but we tried really hard.

I don't know why I'm saying all this? I just felt like writing it down.

Basically if 'you're' looking for a puppy, don't do what I did. Make sure that 'everyone' in the family wants one first. If you've had children, then you'll know what it's like to be looking after a little one 24/7. It is HARD WORK, it's not all about fluffy little puppies running around. There's vet bills, and not to mention the extra cost of having to feed the puppy and getting every thing he/she needs. Puppies need a lot of attention, love and care. Don't be ignorant to these facts like I was. I come under the category of those irresponsible people who get puppies and think it'll all be easy! It's not!!! Although I did loads of research before we got her, I obviously didn't do enough and I went in with my eyes closed and focused too much on the negative.

A Week with out Joe.

OMG, I'm sitting here crying. My youngest son Joe has just left with my sister & her hubby and daughter to go to Hastings for a week. It's the first time Joe will have been away for a week, and I am so going to miss him. But I know he's going to be so busy he won't miss me. I don't know what came over me? As I didn't think I'd cry. But as they left and was out of the door the tears started to come. I shut the door after waving them goodbye and ran upstairs as I didn't want my eldest boys and hubby to see me crying.

I'm OK now, the tears are stopping. I don't know how I'll cope when all my boys fly the nest.
Silly me I know.

My Mate Kim.

I spent the afternoon with my mate today, we've known each other for about 11 years now. She's my one and only friend I have in 'real' life. I don't make friends easily, as I'm not confident like that. It stems from my school days. I was always the odd one out, the quiet one and the one who never got picked for team play outs on Rounders etc. I never felt like I fitted in at school, and I've sort of grown up and find it hard to join in with other people. I get worried that if I made new friends, they'd expect too much from me, more than I can give, as I'm kind of a solitary person. When someone does want to talk to me, I sort of feel like 'Why do they want to talk to me?' Because of this and because I don't join in with discussions and find it hard to walk up to people and chat, I have been told I come across as aloof. I really don't mean to be like this, it's just my low self esteem. In my own home and around my family I have tons of confidence, it's just other areas when it comes to talking to others that I have a problem. That's one of the reasons I like the Net as I can open up and be myself, without having to talk face to face with anyone. Anyway enough of that.....

My mate has two Staff's, they're cute dogs but when they first see you they go mental! I have yet another two scratches that are turning into bruises on my arm. Storm and Brandy are their names and my mate wants to breed them, I think she's crazy!!!!!!
We took them for a walk today and I could see in some people's faces they were worried about walking past us. There has been some bad press in the papers about Staff's and I am weary myself, not just about my mates dogs, but I am weary of all dogs. Even my puppy when we had her. I have this little fear about dogs, due to my hubby's dog when I first met him, who didn't like me! I'm not as scared now, but it's always on my mind.

I kind of feel sorry for my mate, because as long as I've known her she's been on her own. She's had to bring up her two children on her own, with hardly any help from her ex. Now she's going through the teenage thing with her 17 year old son, and where it's easier for me, because I have hubby to back me up, she has no one. So she's really having a bit of a rough time atm. I listen and try to give some advice, but she has to do what she feels is right. It's easy for me to tell her to do this and do that, when I go home to hubby.

One of the things I like about my mate is she always asks me for a reading, but she takes them too seriously, although I do tell her not to, they're only meant as inspiration. No cards can tell her, her future, they only guide to bring positive actions and inspiration into your life.

My mate has been a good mate to me, there have been some rocky times. But we've stayed friends throughout. I couldn't imagine not having her friendship. I think she's in my life to teach me not to be judge mental, and I'm in her life to teach her there is life after death. As she's terrified of dying. But we're also in each others life to give each other support and friendship.