More Pics!!

OK so I'm totally embarrassing myself now, but I don't care! LOL.

Here's some pics of me when I was small. The top two are of when I was a baby, and on one I'm sitting on my aunts lap. The bottom left is my Nursery photo and the bottom right, I'm pre-nursery age with my brother John.

Writing a Book - A Poem.

I'm trying to sit and write a book,
I wish it was as easy as it looks,
But words they come and words they go,
My mind goes blank and I'm shouting NO!!!!

I so want to get this story done,
But I'm also having a lot of fun,
I'm creating characters I never knew
But so wish that they could come true,

There is a Grace and a Carly too,
I bet you wish that you knew
Who they were and what they do,
The journeys they have that would touch me and you,

But you'll have to wait till the day,
I write the last line and hope and pray,
That my story may get published so,
For the story to open and flow,

But if it doesn't get published at all,
I will still share the story with you,
For what is a book without a story,
and people to read in all it's glory,

It's something to pass down to my generations too,
They will know what it was like for me and you,
Knowing what it's like in this day and age,
I hope they enjoy every page.

' © Copyright By Margo. July 2007'

Me With Long Hair!

I thought I'd add this pic here. It's me back in 1997. Before I knew about PC's and when my hair was beautiful and long!!! Oh I Miss it, if only back then I knew how gorgeous my hair was. *Sigh*

Btw I was drunk in this pic, that's why I'm posing like a tart! LOL.

It's Over!!

The Harry Potter series is over, well sort of as I can always re-read the books again which I plan to do over and over again. I do plan to re-read all my books, including The Priestess of the White by Trudi Canavan & To Kill A Mocking Bird by Harper Lee, which I hated. But I've read books before and disliked them only to like them when I give them another go.

Atm I've had a headache these past four days in which I read Harry Potter non stop. I was going to take a rest from reading but now I'm reading HP & the Prisoner of Azkaban. I guess I'm just addicted to reading. But no doubt soon I'll be taking time out as that's how it goes.

The kids have broken up for Summer, Joe goes away with his auntie, uncle and cousin to Hasting for a week in August. He's really looking forward to that.

I'm hoping to be working from September, I'm so bored at home now.

18 year olds. ARRRHHHHHH!

Friday evening, my eldest son Alex went out to the pub with his mates. We hate it when he goes to the pub as it has caused problems, as he thinks it's so macho to drink. I compromised and said I'd wait up till 12am for him, but of course this wasn't good enough, as he said he would be out longer than that. He told me not to wait up, I warned him the door would be locked after 12am and that if he wasn't back by then he had better make arrangements to sleep at a friends house. So 11pm comes around and I text him to warn him I'll be going to bed soon and that I'll be locking up. So he texts me back, saying he's 18 and why am I doing this? He asks me not to lock the door. After a few text's, he decided to make his way home, not wanting to go to a friends that night.

Well, when he got in he was so drunk he could hardly stand, he was swaying all over the place and it was so clear on his face that he was just about 'here'. He started babbling about how we're too over protective etc, and I told him while he goes to the pub, I will always wait up for him and expect him home by 12am. (for some reason he wants to stay out till 2am! or longer!) Because of the things that happen in the world today, like kids getting stabbed for no reason these days, plus he can't drink sensibly we want him home at a decent hour so we know he's safe. There's also the issue from personal experience, as his dad was attacked with knives when he was just 20 for no reason, just because a bunch of idiots wanted someone to pick on, his dad is lucky he survived. So hubby has this on his mind and wants Alex to be safe. As parents it's our responsibility to keep him safe.

Anyway, after Alex has his little rant, he goes straight up stairs to bed......... And yes you guessed it, throws up all over his floor!!!! So I made him clean it up, there was no way I was touching it. Through coaching him, he got it all cleaned up in between him falling sleep, he had a rough night after that and spent Saturday with a rather nasty hang over HAHA!

I dread the next time he wants to go to the pub, which seems to be every Friday night now. I know we can't protect him all the time and if he wasn't going to the pub, I wouldn't have to wait up all the time. But he can't see that's it's just because we love him. He said his friends parents aren't like this, but like I said to him I don't give a stuff about them, I care about him. I care enough about him to want to make sure he's home safely, so I will be waiting up for him for as long as it takes for him to get out of this 'I must get drunk at the pub stage!'

An Angel

Tonight I saw an angel,
She was standing on the stage,
She wore a pretty smile,
She had a flower in her hair,
I looked up to this angel,
And knew she was the best,
I'll never forget when she saw us,
and put her hands up in the air,
She performed with such grace,
I loved every single moment,
I love this little angel,
She has my heart forever more.

Tonight I went and saw Sophie's Show with her mum, Jess. Sophie was fantastic and I was so proud of her on that stage. I felt so happy when she saw us and waved back. I am so proud of Sophie and my heart leapt when she performed. Although I don't have a little girl of my own, I know Sophie is my little girl. She's so beautiful.

Today - 17th July 2007

I had a lovely afternoon with my sister and niece today. I blow dried my niece's hair and then we sat and did two puzzles together, after that we read together. She is so bright she learnt quickly what certain words were. She's like an old soul in a young body.

My sister made me the most amazing lunch! It was a fruit Salad with Avocado (which I hadn't tried before) apple, sultanas, orange and walnuts. It was so delicious.

I can see Sophie (my niece) in years to come as a young lady, and I know she's going to make everyone proud, she already does. Saturday I am going to see her on stage doing her ballet dancing and tap dancing. I am really looking forward to that.

It was one of my neighbours funeral today, he was an elderly man and he found out in October that he had Cancer, and it quickly spread to the rest of his body. He leaves a wife, and a grown up family. I didn't really know him, only to say hello, yet when I see the hearse today there was a lump in my throat, I think I will miss seeing him. Although I didn't know him well, it was normal to see him outside doing his car and pottering about. Things like this, always make you wish you got to know people better and they make you think of your own actions in life.

Parenting is hard

You know, parenting is hard work. I think it must be the hardest job on earth. Although it's very enjoyable most of the time, and the love within a family is one of the most beautiful things ever, at times you feel like pulling your hair out.

Parenting doesn't come with an instruction booklet, oh yes you get those annoying booklets in baby packs for new parents with babies, that tell you how to do things the 'right' way, and yet eventually you find your own 'right' way.

But I have to say one of the hardest stages is the teenage years. The reason for this is, as a parent you find yourself in a situation of needing to let go. As a parent you try so hard to keep your children safe, then the day comes when they turn 18 and think they know it all, and don't need you anymore. Well, they think they don't need you anyway, but really they do.

I'm so proud of all my kids and I love them dearly. Even if at times they think I don't cause I moan at them for things like staying out all night when all I wanted was a simple text or phone call to say all was well, and what he (they) was doing. Oh well, I guess as a parent you have to go through a phase with your kids, and one day you come out the other side and can laugh about it all.

Live Earth Concert

I watched the Live Earth Concert yesterday, and I really enjoyed it. I spent the afternoon/evening reading on my bed as I listened to the music and waited for my favourite acts.

My favourites were:

Keane: Doesn't Tom Chaplin look different! He looked healthier and happier)

Metallica: When they said 'Nothing Else Matters' it was fantastic!!!!!

Foo Fighters: It's the first time I have seen these guys sing live, they were fantastic I love 'Best of You'

And not forgetting the wonderful and very talented Madonna!!! She was brilliant! I also love her new song 'Hey You' she is such an inspiration and when I'm her age, I hope my body is in as good as shape her hers, she's looks fantastic!

It worked!!

I saw certain celebrity on TV this afternoon on the Grand Prix and I felt no animosity towards her at all. I've been working on my feelings and negative thoughts and emotions etc. I actually felt like I liked her, and I can honestly sit here and say I wish her well. We may be different and have different lives, but in the end we're all human.

I'm on a Mission

I'm on a mission, I'm trying to be as positive as I can possibly be. I've been doing this since I last posted about a certain celebrity. So instead of feeling down about certain situations, I'm trying to see the positive in them and in people. I'm doing this by stepping out of the situation and trying to view it from the outside.

It's helped me this week, and I am going to try and keep it going. Now I know that in life, there's a balance, sometimes we find ourselves being negative. May be this is the balance that's needed at times. After all, we're only human and there's a balance in everything (Night and day, good and bad, male and female etc..) . If you find yourself being negative, as long as you're not hurting another then I think it's OK.

But at the moment, my mission is to try and see the good in everything and try to be as positive as I can be.

If anyone else wants to try it and join in, feel free.

All Ages can read My blog!

Yay, this a blog is OK for all ages! Apparently I only have one bad word on here which is asshole! LOL

Peace and Quiet?

Last night my neighbour had her music after 9:30 pm. It was on for just under half an hour, and although it wasn't long. It was really stressful for us. We don't know when she's going to turn it off, or for how long it will play? I end up sitting there waiting for her music to come on.

In all honesty, although it pisses me off. I can put up with her music during the day. But when the evening comes, it's different. Hubby has to get up at 4:30am for work and all we want to do in the evening is relax. At the moment I'm finding that really hard to do. Also I'm trying to not let it get to me or get me down. It's affected me in the fact that I can't relax and join in my forums like I usually do, and also I can't relax enough to read right now. I can't relax like I used too, full stop!

So I'm practicing more reiki and trying to keep myself busy. I'm also trying not to hate my neighbour, but instead to think kindly of her, I can tell you thats hard to do when they don't respect your peace and quiet.

This is supposed to be a number 9 year, where good things happen. well number 9 has always been an unlucky number for me, and it seems to be proving me right!


But enough ranting, I'll try and think of positive thoughts. Hmmmmm

Celebrity Hates

There's a certain celebrity I have really disliked over the years, I've hated every thing about her and have slagged her off rotten at times. But lately, I've been thinking about why I dislike her? There are a couple of reasons, but in reality I don't think my reasons are justified. As I don't know this woman personally, and she's most probably a lovely lady. Plus, why do I put so much energy into her life when it's my life that's important?

Here's some reasons:

She doesn't seem to do much for charity, but then have I really researched that to find out what charities she does support? The answer to that is no.

Her pout winds me up, but then she is a celebrity and her life is in the public eye and all about the celeb status.

Am I jealous? I guess I am little, not of who she is, but of what she can do with all that money she has.

Is she a good role model? I don't think she is really due to how thin she is. it's obvious she is only that thin as she has worked at it to be that thin. It's reported she is a size 0 and to be honest she looks it. I don't think it looks nice to be that thin, but she likes it so it's up to her.

Also she recently brought out a book, and when she was advertising it, she was on GMTV saying how easy it is to put a nappy in a tiny hand bag and still go out looking fab. The problem with this is, in the real world, mums need to take a lot more than a nappy out with them when you have a baby in tow. But hey, we don't all have minders and nannies to carry the huge load for us. Ok this isn't going as it's supposed to be going, but these are some of my reasons.

When celebs complain about being constantly photographed, it really pisses me off, as everyone that's famous is only so because they want to be (I'm talking pop stars, soap star, movie star etc). It goes with the job, you know that from the start of wanting to be famous. If you want to be famous then you know you have no private life as such, so you have choice if you don't like it give up your fame, move where no one else knows you, stop making records, movies, songs, modeling etc ......

So anyway, I've decided that instead of feeling real dislike for this person, to instead try and send out good vibes. When I think of her I'll try to remember what she's achieved, after all she is only where she is today through her own hard work. In reality she lives in a different world to me, where she shares her life with other celebs. It doesn't make her better than me, but also it doesn't make me better than her. We're all human, making our way in the world and in all honesty who am I to judge?

So I end this by wishing her well. Good luck to the band when they reform too. ;)